My ADHD Diagnosis
For years, I wrestled with anxiety and a constant sense of feeling out of place. Then, one day, my therapist posed a question that had never crossed my mind - had I ever been assessed? It was as if a Pandora's box had been opened, and I was eager to explore its contents.
With the characteristic hyperfocus of ADHD, I delved into understanding my struggles. Despite years of studying neuroscience and mental health, I found myself grappling with these issues. This moment with my therapist felt like a green light, an affirmation that it was okay to consider the possibility of being neurodivergent, even as an adult.
As a primary school teacher, I had often read reports about students with ADHD and saw reflections of my younger self in them. I was now on the verge of discovering that adult ADHD was not just real, but also prevalent, with a large number of adults either living with it or awaiting assessment. Moreover, I found that there was a supportive community out there.
Filling out the extensive assessment forms, I knew I checked all the boxes. The relief when I received the official diagnosis was immense. It was a revelation and a fresh start. I got my diagnosis just before my birthday and it felt as if a massive burden had been lifted from my heart and shoulders. It was a moment of self-acceptance and compassion, a cathartic experience that marked the beginning of a journey that continues to this day.
Reflecting on the past, I realized that despite being a teacher, my understanding of ADHD was limited. My thirst for knowledge led me to the ADD Coaching Academy, where I truly began to understand the complexities of ADHD. Recollections from my childhood, teenage years, twenties, and the transition to motherhood resurfaced. These memories were painful, but post-diagnosis, I allowed myself to feel the sadness, to grieve, and to gently remind myself that I now had the answers and could take the time to process and move forward.
Nearly three years post-diagnosis, I can attest that living with ADHD is akin to riding a rollercoaster. There are days when I feel unstoppable, as if I've deciphered the ADHD enigma, only to crash hard without warning, feeling overwhelmed by it all. It's been a steep learning curve, but with new strategies in place, I'm pleased to say that life feels more balanced and serene. These strategies include working with an ADHD coach, leading an alcohol-free life, incorporating daily physical activity, and embracing a slower pace of life.
Do I still have challenging days? Without a doubt! But these small positive changes are beginning to yield results, and I find myself recovering from the lows of ADHD a bit faster. The key to this journey is knowledge, understanding, and a generous dose of self-compassion!